“City of Death”

Hey Shaumbra

I was born in Oświęcim (Auschwitz) city of the Holocaust, a city where people showed other people how much they lack love for themselves and their neighbor. In a city where human life meant so much as soap that can be produced from the human body. I was born in the city of light – Auschwitz in Polish it is OŚWIĘCIM – comes from the Polish word OŚWIECENIE – ENLIGHTENMENT, in the city of light, which has claimed its darkness. And on all this, on all experiences of the history of this place, I become. It is the reason that it is me.

The name of the city of Oświęcim has three legends that tell about it. One of them tells about the priest who, entering the tunnel, was enlightened by light. The second one is about the same priest who saw the saints in the dark tunnel and shouted – Oh, saints! And the third concerns the enlightenment of this priest who, in the dark, shines with the light of consciousness.

The greatest light attracts the greatest darkness, do you know that? You can also put it in the opposite direction, you can see your greatest light only in the dark tunnel, where nothing is reaching. There are only darkness and us. There, you can find the greatest treasures for yourself, you just have to dare. Why the treasures? Because we can not see them in everyday life, we only see the tops of the mountain, not suspecting that behind the fog, there is a solid rock, fused with us.

When we allow darkness to cover us with our night, we are left alone. We experience the greatest fears, and in fact, only then we can see them in full. During the day no one is afraid of the dark. In the darkest night, we come to the worst scenarios of life and death, ourselves and our families, friends, and enemies. Comes jealousy, pride, comes fear for existence, for a word, a decay. But when we allow it to be noticed, to its emergence, which we have not been willing to do – Oh! Then it’s just happening!

You can say NO – it does not concern me. But YES, everyone has as much light in them as the dark. Each of us is a human being, he lives in collective consciousness and has similar fears, he carries darkness in himself. Allow it to manifest itself in all its glory and accept it, it is the real path to enlightenment. Then we can create fully.

One day, I came up with a controversial inscription on cotton bags which was – I LOVE AUSCHWITZ. At that time I thought that I meant a city that I love. But there is much more in it. What happened in Auschwitz touched the depths of darkness, the darkness that has always been, it always there, and always will be in every human. And I honestly admit that I love this darkness, and precisely that it has manifested itself for me in such a close environment that I could grow up in its neighborhood. Feel its breath on my back. It taught me to associate with darkness, to let it go, not to look away, and sometimes even to joke about it.

Do not get me wrong, I do not judge what happened there, though I could do it without a problem. For my soul, the most important thing is what brought me to me, Ania living a few hundred meters away. Ania who, wherever she went and said where she was from, was in a state of confusion and disbelief. How is it to live in Auschwitz they asked from everywhere, making big eyes. I used to say that normally, just like in another city. But no, now I see everything much deeper, much more aware, now I feel the difference.

I live in a city that has prophesied enlightenment. It shone so much that it attracted the greatest darkness. Now I could love this darkness, love all the stories of the victims and executioners. No judging. I allowed myself to love the darkness and it shined with the pure light of love. I am here and now. I Am who I Am. I Am Love.

I Am in the right place and everything is good in all creation, all we need to do is understand this.


Last Communion

It’s time to break up with identifying with the group. Yes, we’ve always lived in a group so far, it gave us strength and added glitz, but that’s it. Now we are starting the era of ourselves and this is a great, big change.

Women no longer have to identify with women, men with men, employees with work, masters with masters.

Previously, power was in the circle, no matter if it was family or community. Christians worshiped and worship this circle, uniting – eating communion, wafer, Christ’s body. This state of being, feeling a lot bigger, being part of a big plan, is no longer valid for us. When humen fully develops love for themselves, it shines with its own light. He does not have to impress anyone anymore, he does not have to reflect in others, all he needs is his energy, and he can be much bigger and larger than ever before.

Ancient rituals also sought to unite energy so that it would grow, it would be stronger, but enough of it. Energy is everywhere and we decide how much we will allow in our body how much will come to us. For the first time in many, many lifetimes, we can leave our Angels, our guides, our gurus and move into ourselves, where we are the greatest master, where nobody will tell us what to do, because only we can know, because only we are us . We choose, we have everything, we are sovereign and ourselves, without anyone’s help we can go our own way like never before. We can listen to ourselves, collect synchronicities and fulfill the best potentials for us and that is true freedom, to be sovereign.

It is the time of individuals, their passions, their lights. The circle ceases to exist, it has already fulfilled all its roles, all tasks and now we are going alone. We are everything and everyone.

We ourselves are the whole circle. And this is great.



* Communion – emotional identification with the community, with the environment.

(photo from manorhouse.pl)

There are many truths

I have always been too stubborn, too proud, too obstinate. Everything, of course, was the way I chose, but on this way to know my fears, I hurt many people with my perfection of one truth. I was like the best detective who wanted to prove to everyone that there is only one truth and that’s what I represent. I had a keen mind and perfect intuition. I could use arguments and sometimes trickery to chase the victim into a corner and prove to her how wrong she is. Often, to the limits of decency, by force, I opened people to the things they did not want to see. And then they burst, they fell apart in their ruins of lies, and I triumphed in the depths of the greatest winner. It was like that. This has been going on for many years, because it seemed to me then that there is only one TRUTH on each topic and it should be followed.

There were many dictators before me, they acted the same way. They had to, like me, prove their highest truth, regardless of the consequences. They could ruin their families, friends, kill whole nations in following their only truth. They could ruin themselves, but they did not let them go, because their mind told them they were RIGHT.

I have already noticed that this was an illusion, and the most releasing truth is precisely that it exists many truths.

However, now that I have started to see other dimensions, it has become so simple and clear.

Imagine two sisters, one is open to feeling and one is closed. They live in one house, have common parents, friends, stay in the same energy. One sees ghosts and talks to them, for the other sister they do not exist. One will give a hand to cut off that there are ghosts, the other will go in, that the sister is crazy, because there are no ghosts. We come to the wall, for the mind someone should decide which sister is telling the truth and who is cheating. However, both sisters have their truth, the most true one possible, because it is true for them. They create their lives the way they want, and indeed for one sister, the world is full of the creation of souls that are no more, for the other these souls do not exist. Each of them has its own truth on this subject and the truth of each is equally true. There is no conflict here. Both tell the truth about their world, none is better or worse. They simply live on other dimensions of the world.

When we begin to open up to the truth, to ourselves, to freedom and love, when we choose to awaken our consciousness, everything changes for us. We are beginning to enter other dimensions of the world. It ceases to be a game of the mind, we break away from following the collective consciousness, we start to reflect everything from each other. Then the world changes, we see another dimension. Suddenly everything becomes more vivid, we see the inner beauty of every being, everything exudes energy. We see the same things in a completely different way than people who endure in a collective consciousness. We are opening further and further, everything is more and deeper, we see beauty and love in everything, even in ugliness, in harm, in betrayal. We change and the world changes with us, but for others, this world is the same as at the beginning of our path. When we enter the next dimension of feeling the world, some of our friends do not see what we do. Then you have to bow with dignity to all who choose otherwise, honor them for the fact that they are going their own way and we must go further, without them.

Spirituality has many dimensions, thousands. Each of them opens a new perception for the next and the next part of our lives. Going further, we already know that not everyone is like us, others have their own truths that are as true to them as our truths. Everyone chooses their own way, because everyone is free. And every conscious free person respects the freedom of another human being.

We come to the point where we can see that there are many truths. Some people may not eat for two years and feel great, others die of hunger on the other side of the world. Some see ghosts, aliens, talk to angels, others see their religion, believe in it and it is just as true for them and this religion can do miracles just as well. There are people who travel between dimensions, see unicorns, dragons, for others it happens only in fantasy books. Our creation is limitless, our dimensions are us, we can connect with consciousness with others in the physical dimension, but our limitations from one dimension, at some point, cease to exist for us. We can then jump between dimensions and choose what is best for us and have our own truth in self-discovery.

You can try to explain your truth to the world, but if someone does not open it, he will never see it. You can see dragons, but if someone does not reach this dimension, they will not see anything. Of course, there are tricks, drugs, herbs. The shamans used them for millions of years to enter a different dimension of perception, but after some time, these doors to dimensions disappear with the disappearance of the drug. We can still experience ayahuasca and enter a different dimension for a moment. Only in high consciousness, the door is always open and every dimension passes through the Master, if he so chooses. This is another phase of freedom, but only true for those who have come there, for all others it will be a cock-and-bull story. And that’s OK.

We enlighten ourselves not for friends and family, not for our children and the whole world. For us. Our creations are for us. It’s always nice to be surrounded by people who see and feel what we do, but not at any price. Not at the cost of a forced stop. Unless you choose it. Our growth reflects on the fate of the world anyway, and who we become is the best example for everyone around us, we do not have to prove anything to anyone and it is beautiful.

The fact that we have many truths is really OK. This is the freedom we have always wanted, let’s use it with love as best we can. For themselves, not for others. For us…


Safe Space

I do not know if anyone more than I appreciated the safe space in life. From an early age, I lived in a fictitious world, the world of my imagination. When other children played with each other in the playground, I separated myself and created a safe space in my head, an entirely different world in which I exist almost as much time as in the real world.

When in the primary school we moved with the family to a new home, I quickly got to the attic. I cleaned up all the lumber that lived there and created my first real safe space. To get to me, the family had to overcome many stairs, so hardly anyone appeared there. In the gate to the attic, in the staircase, I drew huge paintings that expressed me. On the main wall at the entrance, I drew a plant growing high with the eye instead of the inflorescence. Under the drawing, I wrote: “Look at the world from a different point of view.”
In this room, I was discovering spirituality, and I was hiding my first books, I talked with God and Angels. I experienced the first love, and I built friendships.

I lived like that for several years, but even the safe space in the family home became too small for my soul at some point. I could not find myself in being an obedient daughter. My parents gave me a lot of freedom anyway, but I needed more. When I was 15, I got to Krakow, 60 km from Oświęcim – my hometown. Then I unconsciously began to release my family ties. I lived in a boarding school for girls and came home only on weekends. It was a real mixing of energy, very necessary at that moment to be reflected in my roommates like in mirrors. We lived in five in one room, each of us had a strong personality, and none of us interfered in the life of another.

After finishing high school I found a school in Warsaw, not knowing the city, nor having any person close to me, I went to the capital. I lived in student apartments, and it was another dose of freedom. Too far from the family to go on weekends, without old friends. Everything was new and free. I had a great room where I could develop my occult interests. It seemed to be my path then, now I know it was just a staircase to see that the world is much more mysterious. I grew bigger and more open to my gifts – intuition, imagination, a feeling of energy. I met the shamans, talked to ghosts, meditated.

In retrospect, I see how important it was in this life. Everywhere I went, I broke away from the bond. More and more. I grew up alone, which was the greatest gift for me. Later I wanted to be close, stable, fell in love and closed in a space of my husband for several years. There was no old me, I stopped dreaming, I stopped talking with Angels. In the husband’s apartment, everything was his and on his terms. Even if I smuggled something, it was a compromise and it was not really mine. Stuck. I felt bad, I slowly disappeared, but it seemed to me that if I love someone, it is so necessary. I accepted hundreds of compromises, I entered my husband’s energy completely, I stopped leaving the house, meeting people. It was a strange time to lose myself. One day, broken and destroyed by endless quarrels, I sat on the couch and floated away into my world of imagination. The world of safe space from childhood. It was so easy for me and so forgotten. I felt like I found the way to myself in an instant. In my safe space I was still there. I WERE, regardless of the circumstances and who I became as a wife, I was still intact there. It changed everything.

I remember how I breathed the fresh air when my husband was already showing me a flat for renovation in which I could live until I sorted out the divorce. I saw ragged walls illuminated by the sun. I saw my new safe space, and it shone a thousand potentials for me. I did not see the broken walls, and I saw the furniture, the beds, my son’s colorful room, but the most beautiful was the luminous road leading straight to itself, to self-development, to awakening consciousness.

A safe space is invaluable for a human who wants to open himself. It is the opening of the gate.

If we want to feel the true self, experience the master who lives inside of us, we must separate ourselves from the energy of others. Go to the forest, live alone, create from scratch your safe space, so that in the womb you can grow without turbulence. This time, however, having only oneself and taking only what is ours.

When we create a world around us on our terms or find a place where we feel at home, we naturally start to open.
For the first time, we open ourselves completely. Nobody bothers us, so we grow, and fly to our mastery.


Ecstasy – Here and Now

The mastery is not sacred, it continually gets into new situations, it is continuously reflected from human nature, and it returns with consciousness to its place. And more naturally, being a Master, we are also a human being. It is time to move away from the illusion of a Master who is never wrong, and his world is impeccably organized into an ordered whole.

Master does not need to arrange or order anything. He does not need to be overly sweet, just as many people think.
Master draws wisdom from everything and does not categorize the world for better and worse.
The master knows that everything is well in all of creation because he realizes that he is the creator.

Many times I exchanged energy with others, incomprehension, even sometimes I entered into a moment of anger, and I do not consider it as something “bad”, but only for something that was supposed to appear, for me or someone else. To show us something, teach something, ground something. The human in me still has the ego and the mind and probably never get rid of this. Unconditional love to myself, gives me love for all my creations in everyday life and understand them more. Often it gives me a lot of funny situations. Everything matters to me if it is manifested in my life. And I know very deeply that it’s all GOOD for me.

At the same time, I am still living in a state of ignorance. I do not care about the world. I do not distinguish between politicians. I do not know what the weather will be tomorrow. In general, I do not care about it, because my life is HERE and NOW. The great delusion of the world is a life in a continuous past and future. Banal, but how much misunderstood by the world.

When the past touches us, we feel our wounds of the past, our worries, they rule our mind. We can not enter of pure NOW. Our head is still busy with something from the past. Looking to the future, most often with fear, we are afraid of what may come, what will happen to us, how others will react to our actions – it paralyzes us in NOW. It works like a constant tug of war – it does not give you truly free.

Maybe you ask – how to do it? How to live in now? The answer is simple – stop controlling, start allowing everything. But of everything! NOT ONLY FOR WHAT COMFORTABLE FOR YOU. At the beginning, it can be difficult, because the mind does not want to get rid of control for anything in the world. He feeds himself from control and power. How do you stop controlling your love or your employees, your organized day? The world will fall apart!

However, in small steps, when we allow less and less control, we become less drawn into the mind games until we become truly confident and confident in our creations and more and more free. It’s starting to lead us something much more significant – consciousness. And most importantly, we are beginning to live in HERE and NOW more and more. And it is not fake. It is something authentic. This is exactly what the Masters do in their lives every day – they ALLOW. Even if (seemingly) something disturbing happens in our lives, the Master knows well that it happens for some reason, and later when we notice the whole, the hardship of this situation disappears as if it never existed. And you can laugh at it, as loud as you can.

Such a life is extremely pleasant. It is like devotion to ecstasy, abandoning everything in the name of freedom and pleasure. Boundless immersion. Total acceptance of the experience. Release. Ecstasy. Nothing interests you, you are in this beautiful state and everything is going smoothly, without your intervention, without control. A very similar feeling arises when two lovers are completely open to each other, and every touch releases all the brakes. Losing yourself in the moment for the sake of pleasure. The same energy is created in the real being in HERE and NOW. You feel it, you lose yourself in being and in life. Everything becomes easy because you do not have to think about anything. Somewhere under your skin, you know that the world serves you, and you can be detached from the human world, you can fly.

Free Yourself from Control. Free yourself from the delusion of what your quest for developing consciousness should look like. It will look exactly as it should look, not better and not worse. So why fight it? You can only allow. To give in to it with lightness. Be in a state of divine grace. Continue in ecstasy.

And so it is.