Last night I felt great anxiety, and I could not sleep.
At 4 in the morning, I was able to sleep and had a dream.
I dreamed we were flying by plane with a whole group of friends.
It was a very small and narrow airport. The pilot tried to take off from the airport, but it was too small to be lifted. The pilot attempted several times to start the plane. He was terribly upset and afraid to continue flying. Passengers wanted to fly, but they were afraid too.
Then Silvia arrived in the car and offered to take everyone, but that was not enough. They were all disappointed.
It was possible to start the plane, but the pilot was afraid to do so. Each time at the start of the aircraft the pilot stopped.
When I woke up, I told myself that I don’t want again to stop at the last moment, just before the start!!!
I don’t want STOP HOLDING BACK.
You have all the knowledge, skills and tools.
There is nothing to learn, read or study.
You are everything, you have everything.
You are complete.
What are you holding back? What keeps you in your resistance?
Why are not you enlightened yet?
You can make a final decision at any time, but you do not do it. Why?
What are you waiting for?
Why are you waiting?
Are you waiting for a solution to the old issues and problems? Have you taken responsibility for things that are not yours?
Are you waiting for a better time until the problems resolve themselves? Because you are the master of new energy? And you just wait and do nothing… ?
What really stops you?
Do not wait for others until they are enlightened. Do not try to take old things with you that no longer fit you.
This is all fucking old!!! You do not need it. Stop worrying about others and taking care of them. It is not yours.
Stop worrying about the unsettled things and the old problems that you took on yourself. It is not yours.
Most things in your life are not yours. Most of your fears and struggles are not yours.
Most of your health problems and diseases are not yours.
You think they are yours, but it’s not yours. LET IT GO.
Let go of everything.
If you let everything go, you will not go away.
It’s like death. This is like a very slow dying.
But you can die quickly. You have enough torment and slow dying.
This is obviously not physical death. You can be calm.
But the death of all your old stories, your ego, past lifetimes and constant concern for your problems that are NOT REALLY YOURS.
There is nothing to delay this for later. You’ve been waiting TOO LONG,
and you are already really tired of it!
It is like death and it seems terrible and painful, but it is very easy to die.
You just take a deep breath and LET IT GO.
Do not be afraid to die. Trust yourself and LET IT GO.
Let ALL this GO AWAY and feel deeply HOW YOU ARE LIGHT.
And there is only your pure, crystal essence. All that YOU really ARE. Knowingness, wisdom.
No more questions, doubts. Just your pure existence…
And there is nothing more TO DO…
Because You ARE. You EXIST and that’s it.
When I was young and I was about 12 years old, I had a bad dream about my dog, who dies under the wheels of a car.
Next day I realized that It was true. I was shocked doubly because of my dog who died and that I can see everything that is in the past and in the future without limitation, all the same time.
I went home and prayed, took the Bible, I prayed the rosary, and begged the god and all the saints NOT TO SEE IT.
And so it happened.
All my visions, all my sensuality disappeared for years.
And after all this, I started having physical problems with my eyesight. I never had a major eye defect and never wear glasses.
But this event caused physical problems with sight and for a long time hiding from the truth and seeing the truth as it is.
I realized that for many years I had avoided problems and difficult situations by pretending that I did not see them or that they did not even exist.
I read many spiritual books, listened to shouds and felt very comfortable covering myself about myself.
“Doing spiritual things” improved my mood and made me feel good.
I cheated on my progress, but in fact my life changed little in relation to what I thought about myself and what illusions I created about myself.
The biggest problems in my life and fears were tightly covered so that they could not be seen.
This caused me to live a complete stop for a long time. No possibility of going on, still something kept me from living.
I felt frustrated that I had done so many spiritual things, events, read so many books, and I kept stuck in one place.
Then I realized that I was a total idiot, a coward, a fraud, hiding from the truth, from the problems, from myself. I saw the worst of all my previous incarnations. I saw everything AS IT IS, without closing my eyes. I accepted everything. I forgave myself everything. Fear disappeared. I felt I was integrated and FREE.
Do you wear glasses? Do you see well?
I even cheated that I have no eye defect and I was wearing without glasses without seeing anything 😀
I was afraid of enlightenment, I was afraid of abundance, I was afraid of sensuality, I was afraid of love, I was afraid of sex & many more…
And so it is…
See THINGS as THEY ARE
Last time I was experiencing a lot of resistance and energy stuck in my life. There was a lot of time the energy was flowing and experiencing it and times when it becomes in total stuck.
So I asked myself what this resistance is? Why so much energy suddenly froze, and all my life stopped? Any movement. I can do everything, but I can’t. It was like an invisible wall I can’t pass through.
So I realized that this high resistance is just a fear of change. A great change. Part of me was afraid of new energy flow much different than before. It was very comfortable to be in a safe space, old energy patterns. But when I felt the change I resisted, I froze. New energy flow is a total trust in your divine, allowing. As Adamus said, Amhyo is a relationship between human and divine., both aware of each other. Human is not worse than divine, and the divine is not better than human. Human and Divine are equal. In this state of being, everything is flowing to us, comes to us. It sounds easy, but for the human, it means doing nothing. No fighting, no struggling, no working, no friction, no battling, no pluses, and minuses. No duality. Everything is equal. You don’t allow $1000000 to come to you, but you allow abundance in your life in the perfect amount. New energy is balancing itself without managing it. The human can expect only unexpected. Such state of being for the human is very new and uncomfortable, so it resisting it.
In old energy pattern, the human was trying to accumulate energy, but now we are the energy movers, not holders, we are starting to be constantly in the flow of energy, in Ahmyo state.
The human is afraid of losing its energy, but it can’t. If a human would get $1,000,000, it would like to save and accumulate.
But what should a man do in new energies is to let it go and trust. And then there is a movement, constant flow of energy if we are not trying to catch things, holds, and store. This state of being requires a complete trust in ourselves, our humanity and divinity.
I was experiencing it many times and always forgot about it.
I am All that I am
I finished all of my stories
Future and the Past
Everything is from within me
I give myself freedom
I give myself Abundance
I give myself Love
I give myself Health
I give myself Everything I need
I don’t need anybody
I don’t need anything else than me
All is within me
I’ve created Everything that surrounds me
I Am All that I am
And that’s it!
Nothing else, nothing more
No more thinking
No more struggling
No more suffering
No more searching
No more trying
No more doubting
No more waiting
No more fighting
No more learning
All is NOW
I Am ALL