DEATH of the mind

People think that when they are enlightened, they have positive thoughts, smile and send love to the whole world, love plants and animals. But it’s bullshit. Seeing your darkness, everything that you are, looking into every nook gives a sense of freedom. And not hiding and seeing only nice things.
Last days I went really deep into my darkness.
I was scared, I was furious, I was never so mad. For a moment I was able to kill others and myself. For the first time in my life, I felt that I could go crazy and lose control of myself. I felt like I was burning. And… Yes, and it was after wonderful moments of elation, awareness, and wisdom.
The more conscious I become, the worse things I can see about myself. So I saw it.
I was aware that it was emotions and that it would pass, but the madness remained.
I let many things go away from my life. But I left myself a small security box, the last rescue wheel.
And I was happy that if I fucked up, I would have a rescue wheel.
I did wonderful things, I acted with panache, but to a certain limit. How was it going to be doing dangerously, badly, the moment when the air from the rescue wheel started to come down. I was crazy, I started doing stupid things, I started to fight for life like a madman. I saw my worst emotions that were deeply hidden and I was afraid to see them before.
I was afraid that I would lose control of my life. It was the fight of my mind, the ego that got into the worst of it.
Then I gave up. Like losing a war on the battlefield and dying. I totally gave up and recognized my fall, the worst thing I was afraid of. After death, relief came.
I understood that my mind can no longer manage and control my life. It was a life of a human, a mind who wants to survive and not live like a master.
Ego is fighting for life. He struggles and tries to eliminate his opponents. This is not the life of a master.
He is looking for security. He is calm as he is safe, he goes mad as he feels threatened.
The mind of a human does not know his greatest potentials, desires and why he came here. He just wants to survive.
I let my illusions die, the life that human created. I was sad that I chose so little and did not take everything from life. Only I lived to a minimum to feel safe and survive.
I set my limits. I placed myself in my tight crystal.
I entered so deeply into human experience that I forgot who I was.
I knew it would happen.
I chose it consciously as a master before I came here on Earth.
I have now reached a point where I can clearly see that I have hidden from myself.
All human experiences were great. But it’s time to start a new chapter.
Master’s life. Going beyond the human imagination and the ego’s mind and desires.
My master self was always with me and watched my experiences. There has never been a separation.
It was just an illusion that I created myself, and I allowed it.
Now is the time to expand beyond this.
And so it is…

“City of Death”

Hey Shaumbra

I was born in Oświęcim (Auschwitz) city of the Holocaust, a city where people showed other people how much they lack love for themselves and their neighbor. In a city where human life meant so much as soap that can be produced from the human body. I was born in the city of light – Auschwitz in Polish it is OŚWIĘCIM – comes from the Polish word OŚWIECENIE – ENLIGHTENMENT, in the city of light, which has claimed its darkness. And on all this, on all experiences of the history of this place, I become. It is the reason that it is me.

The name of the city of Oświęcim has three legends that tell about it. One of them tells about the priest who, entering the tunnel, was enlightened by light. The second one is about the same priest who saw the saints in the dark tunnel and shouted – Oh, saints! And the third concerns the enlightenment of this priest who, in the dark, shines with the light of consciousness.

The greatest light attracts the greatest darkness, do you know that? You can also put it in the opposite direction, you can see your greatest light only in the dark tunnel, where nothing is reaching. There are only darkness and us. There, you can find the greatest treasures for yourself, you just have to dare. Why the treasures? Because we can not see them in everyday life, we only see the tops of the mountain, not suspecting that behind the fog, there is a solid rock, fused with us.

When we allow darkness to cover us with our night, we are left alone. We experience the greatest fears, and in fact, only then we can see them in full. During the day no one is afraid of the dark. In the darkest night, we come to the worst scenarios of life and death, ourselves and our families, friends, and enemies. Comes jealousy, pride, comes fear for existence, for a word, a decay. But when we allow it to be noticed, to its emergence, which we have not been willing to do – Oh! Then it’s just happening!

You can say NO – it does not concern me. But YES, everyone has as much light in them as the dark. Each of us is a human being, he lives in collective consciousness and has similar fears, he carries darkness in himself. Allow it to manifest itself in all its glory and accept it, it is the real path to enlightenment. Then we can create fully.

One day, I came up with a controversial inscription on cotton bags which was – I LOVE AUSCHWITZ. At that time I thought that I meant a city that I love. But there is much more in it. What happened in Auschwitz touched the depths of darkness, the darkness that has always been, it always there, and always will be in every human. And I honestly admit that I love this darkness, and precisely that it has manifested itself for me in such a close environment that I could grow up in its neighborhood. Feel its breath on my back. It taught me to associate with darkness, to let it go, not to look away, and sometimes even to joke about it.

Do not get me wrong, I do not judge what happened there, though I could do it without a problem. For my soul, the most important thing is what brought me to me, Ania living a few hundred meters away. Ania who, wherever she went and said where she was from, was in a state of confusion and disbelief. How is it to live in Auschwitz they asked from everywhere, making big eyes. I used to say that normally, just like in another city. But no, now I see everything much deeper, much more aware, now I feel the difference.

I live in a city that has prophesied enlightenment. It shone so much that it attracted the greatest darkness. Now I could love this darkness, love all the stories of the victims and executioners. No judging. I allowed myself to love the darkness and it shined with the pure light of love. I am here and now. I Am who I Am. I Am Love.

I Am in the right place and everything is good in all creation, all we need to do is understand this.


Last Communion

It’s time to break up with identifying with the group. Yes, we’ve always lived in a group so far, it gave us strength and added glitz, but that’s it. Now we are starting the era of ourselves and this is a great, big change.

Women no longer have to identify with women, men with men, employees with work, masters with masters.

Previously, power was in the circle, no matter if it was family or community. Christians worshiped and worship this circle, uniting – eating communion, wafer, Christ’s body. This state of being, feeling a lot bigger, being part of a big plan, is no longer valid for us. When humen fully develops love for themselves, it shines with its own light. He does not have to impress anyone anymore, he does not have to reflect in others, all he needs is his energy, and he can be much bigger and larger than ever before.

Ancient rituals also sought to unite energy so that it would grow, it would be stronger, but enough of it. Energy is everywhere and we decide how much we will allow in our body how much will come to us. For the first time in many, many lifetimes, we can leave our Angels, our guides, our gurus and move into ourselves, where we are the greatest master, where nobody will tell us what to do, because only we can know, because only we are us . We choose, we have everything, we are sovereign and ourselves, without anyone’s help we can go our own way like never before. We can listen to ourselves, collect synchronicities and fulfill the best potentials for us and that is true freedom, to be sovereign.

It is the time of individuals, their passions, their lights. The circle ceases to exist, it has already fulfilled all its roles, all tasks and now we are going alone. We are everything and everyone.

We ourselves are the whole circle. And this is great.



* Communion – emotional identification with the community, with the environment.

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Life of the average human is based on searching for problems and then solving them through hardship.
As a human, we are used to it. Such action is firmly rooted in mass consciousness.
This is the main motivation of human life, have no problems, pains and be happy.
Many people may think that their lives are great because they have a lot of passions and interests.
But to be true… human problems come down to health, money, relationships, and self-esteem. That’s it. For many lifetimes. It could be a fun and nice experience to live in this limited reality, but it’s time to expand beyond this. Human will never solve his problems because if he solves them it will appear again in another form. This is the nature of the human mind and how it works. Solving problems, achieving goals and desires is a food for the mind.
But now we are freeing ourselves from our minds, and mass consciousness.

At the beginning, as it began in my life, I lost all my human passions and interests. For several years, I tried to go for something new that would bring me joy. But the old methods did not work. Simply, my passion for life has expired. For some time I was wondering if I want to live at all and it makes sense to stay here being surrounded by people who live matters that no longer concern me and which do NOT INTEREST ME AT ALL. I was ready to die.

Now I watch the news, listen to old friends and family… everything is fun for me, I watch it all like a cartoon, a comic show in which I no longer participate. I used to take everything seriously and let myself be drawn in and live with this performance. I used to take it all seriously and I was afraid that I could go wrong in this performance, and the worst thing is that something could happen to me for real.

I played a lot of the role of being a victim, abuser, living in lack, struggling with illnesses and many unsuccessful romances, and of course many more pleasant roles.
But now it’s over. How many times can we play the same? I’m bored with the show.

We can of course stay and play human games in infinity or just say no more and get out of the show!
Yes, we can leave the show! All of this was a human performance, just an experience. But that’s not all that we really are.
We do not have to finish our stories, nor wait for the moment when we solve all of our problems, it is impossible. The only thing we can do is to accept it. Everything that is not entirely our way and fulfills human desires.

As uncle Adamus said at this moment sadness and nostalgia may appear. Why do we just find out about it now and why did it last so long? Sadness that our old human life goes away, which we loved so much and we will not return to it. This is a sweet sadness. A memory of human experiences. A sense of loneliness that we do not belong to the world of mass consciousness that has been so close to us, and now we simply stand beside it all.

At this point, all of our human experiences distill into the sweet nectar of the soul, and we are ready to go for more of ourselves.



Yesterday my mother called me with a grudge that I did not answer her phone. I did not have a phone with me, so I did not answer it. She saw that I did not feel guilty, so she wanted to scare me. She said that I have very important letters from the offices and I have to read them. I have not read or received mail for a long time, so again it did not impress me. But I got mad at it! Why the hell should I do something?

I do not have a duty to answer the phone every time. I have no obligation to explain to anyone of my decisions. I have no obligation to read official letters. I have no duties to others.
I am a free human.
Yes, I can like my parents, my family, and country in which I was born, I respect them, but nobody has to give anything to anyone. We are free if we choose it or we can continue to play this duty game.
But we must remember that we are creators. We are the greatest authorities for ourselves. And we decide for ourselves, not someone else. If we recognize our authority, we are free from others and at the same time we give them freedom too.


Are you your authority or are you serving others?
Do you serve energy or energy serve you?

If we recognize our mastery, we take responsibility for ourselves. We acknowledge that we are the only creators of our lives, then everything adjusts to us not we to others. Energy serves us.